Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Sleepless nights

I don't know if it is my anxiety, I don't know if I am depressed again. Whatever it is I am not sleeping through the night. It is too early for the pregnancy to be causing this already. My belly is sticking out but not uncomfortable. I woke up this morning at 2:00 and could not go back to sleep. I still am not feeling well. I went out to the kitchen to get some milk and just started crying. I could not stop. This was at about 3:40 now. I came in my room and just was sobbing. Rick woke up and was shocked. I was really down yesterday and just wanted to be left alone. I think he is kinda scared because he has no idea what is wrong. All I can think of is that I am stuck in this house 24/7 and it is eating away at me. The weather is really making it worse because I can;t escape and go take a walk or anything! I just can;t take to much more, I am going to completely lose myself.

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