My birth story

Ok so I have not updated my blog since I had my daughter 7 week sago. LOL I guess I have had my hands full. She is sleeping in her sling as I type, so hopefull I can get this all out before she wakes up to be fed.

Let's start out with her birthday: SO my last post I told you about my visit to the doctor because of swelling. To all of you preggo's out there, use this blog as a tell tale sign of labor to come. yesterdays events 
Two days later my water broke! I was really surprised because I was scheduled for a c-section the following week and I thought I would never get the chance to experience REAL labor/childbirth. But I was laying in bed and I was awake a little. I felt what was like a trickle. I just figured it was nothing, but then I felt it again. SO I got up to go to the bathroom when I felt it....the gush. It was 2:30 am. I was just standing there for a second in shock when I had another gush. So I called Rick's name and he sat right up in bed (which is odd for him, he is a deep sleeper) and I said my water just broke. So I waddled over to the bathroom and Gush after gush. No one ever told me when your water breaks it just keeps breaking. I thought it was a gush then you eventually start having contractions. So as I change my pad and underwear 4 times I decided to just stay on the toilet while I called the doctor. LOL. So I got a call back and I was told to go right in. (Now I wish I would have stayed home for a little while longer, as I will get into later) So I was getting my stuff ready and wished I had shaved my legs the day before like I wanted to, I was a nervous wreck. My legs were shaking so bad I could hardly walk.  I was realizing that I was going to get to give natural birth a try. I was so excited. So I told my Mom my water broke and that we would call her later.

On the way to the hospital there was no traffic. We were not really in a hurry because  I was not having contractions yet. Then it happened......I sneezed. And the gush was back. No turning back now. So when we got to the hospital I got out of the car and as soon as I stood up, the waterfall turned on. I was soaked. So it was not a real busy night. No one was in the triage area and since I was "grossly ruptured" I was admitted right away. Here is my lovely picture of my wet pants. I thought it was hilarious, as you can see from my big smile.


I was in a room by 3:30am. They of course had trouble getting my IV started. They ended up putting it in my hand. After they stuck me 5 times in other places. When the nurse checked me I was only 1 cm and stage 4 which is not thinned out at all. Not the news I wanted to hear. SO when I got up to my room in labor and delivery they started me on oxytocin to try to get my contractions started. I was surprised because my doctor and nurse at the office said they would not give me anything to assist in my labor because of my previous c section. Well it did not take long for the contractions to start. I was having them about every 3-5 mins. They were not really what I expected. I was thinking I was going to be in a lot of pain, but it was just like a strong cramping, not a sharp pain. But it did hurt. Rick said he was watching them on paper and they were pretty strong. So I was thinking I was def making some progress. So at 7:30am my doctor arrives. She checks me and I am still 1 cm. So in 5 hours I went no where! I was so disappointed. I was not allowed to walk or anything I had to stay in bed. (This is why I wish I would have stayed home longer. I could have at least walked around some). So Rick and I talked about it. My doctor said I only had until 2:30 in the afternoon to make it all the way to 10 because of my water breaking, to avoid infection I would have to have a c-section by then anyway. So instead of me waiting, and going through the pain of labor to end up with a c-section anyway, we decided to just go in to surgery. Oh and also they baby was not tolerating contractions very well, I had to keep changing positions, so I was also concerned about her going another 7 hours in distress.

So I was happy with my choice. I got to have my doctor deliver the baby. They nurses and surgical staff were super nice. I was so comfortable with everything. The surgery went great. She was born at 8:40am. She was 7lbs 15 oz and 19 inches long. A LOT smaller than we had thought, since Braxton was a big 9lbs 3 oz. She was healthy and doing well. I was so happy to see her. She looked just like her brother. The top pic is Brooklyn and the bottom pic is Braxton.






So I was walking around that  night after surgery and I was determined to get released early. But my doctor kept me there until Saturday. It was okay though, I ate well and bonded with Brooklyn. Rick spent most of his days at home with Braxton and spent the nights with me. I only had a few visitors. Kenny, Kurt and Michelle, Dyana, and of course my parents.

This time around was a great experience. I am not sure if it was because I had done it all before, or because I was just lucky. Anyway you look at it I am lucky. I have 2 beautiful kids that complete my life. And I am fulfilled :o)


Our days have been filled with breastfeeding and nap time. I have more energy than I could ever imagine, but at night I crash and burn. I will continue to update on where and what we are up too. I figured this blog was long enough. I will get into breastfeeding and juggling 2 kids under 4 later. Just for you Barbie :o)

yesterdays events

OKay, so yesterday morning I woke up around 5:00am and noticed my hands were so swollen that I could not make a fist. And they hurt. I went to the bathroom and my face and feet were also swollen. So I drank some water, ate a banana and went back to bed. When I woke up to get Braxton around 7:30am I was still swollen, but figured it was normal, I only have another week. But then I started vomiting. A LOT. I was shaking. I thought maybe it was morning sickness and I needed to eat something. So I ate some cereal. Not too long after that I was vomiting again. A lot. The swelling had not gone down yet so I called the doctor's office and left a message with the nurse, just to make sure it was normal and that I did not need to be concerned. Hours later I got a call from the nurse asking me to come in right away. They wanted to check me and see what needed to be done. SO my first thought was "maybe they think I am about to go into labor" So in that case I wanted Rick to come with me. I had to call my Dad home from work to watch Braxton.

SO I get to the office, the nurse checks my blood pressure 108/88 which seems low to me, but she said was fine. Checked my feet and hands for swelling which had gone down some because it had been hours and I had been moving around, drinking water etc. And that was it. I was not checked for dilation, my baby's heartbeat was not checked. It was like I just went to my regular doctor. Then I get a speech about eating more protein and drinking more water. I explained that I usually eat every few hours but since I was VOMITING today, I had not eaten as much. So yeah, we were sent home. I have my regular visit tomorrow with my doctor. But I was just a little upset that she told us to come right in like it was serious, and then just checked my blood pressure which I could have done from home. I got everyone all riled up, and home from work for nothing. Ugh. It was frustrating.

So last night I still felt yucky. I did eat a big salad with chicken, it was so good, and kept it down. But I could only eat 1/2 a potato at dinner. I went to bed and slept pretty well. Only 8 more days!

37 week appointment

Well I went to the Dr today and I saw the Nurse Practitioner. I asked if she could check to see if I am dilated and she said no, because they don't want to disturb anything in there. Um ok. I was dissapointed to say the least. But I am being sent for another ultrasound to check the size of the baby. Only 2 more weeks left!

And apprently there was a patient there today with Swine Flu! Yeah, that is a little scary. I made sure i wshed my hands a lot. That would not be fun at all!


Oh yeah. And my Group B Strep was positive this time! IT was negative with Braxton. She said it changes all the time. SHe said if they checked 2 weeks from now I might be negative again. If this is the case, why not just treat all Moms with antibiotics at delivery?

a little scary

SO last night I had a scare. This whole pregnancy Brooklyn has been very active. Usually when I go to bed she kicks for about 10 mins. Well last night I laid down and I did not feel her. So I pushed on my belly to try to wake her up and still nothing. I asked Rick to push on my belly and talk to her to see if she would respond. Nothing. So I got up called the dr's office and got the emergency line. I must have written it down wrong because I could not get anything but a fax. While I was in panic mode Rick suggested getting the flashlight and seeing if she would respond to it. Luckily she did. What a relief! We were both so nervous. I am so glad Rick thought about that. So I didn't have to call the Dr and I did kick counts to make sure. She must have just been resting.

I still have net been feeling well. I feel nauseous and tired. I am so ready for this baby to come. But only 15 days left, so I think I can make it.

37 weeks today

Well my day started out yucky. I had morning sickness out of nowhere! But some say that is a sign of early labor. Let's hope so! I have been having bad back pains all weekend. I have had a hard time getting comfortable because my back is aching. SO maybe the baby is getting into position. I Am going to ask to be checked this week to see if I have dilated. I have been taking some short walks to loosen things up.But hey if I am not dilated or effaced, then what is the point? I Could just be relaxing at home :o)

I took a "just for fun quiz" to see what it said and here are my results: You won't need to try any secret recipes to bring on labor. Have your emergency numbers ready. Don't wait until the last minute to get your nursery ready. We predict your baby will... come 1-2 weeks early. Your baby will most likely be born in the morning.Your baby will weigh approximately 9.2 pounds and your labor will be about 5 hours long.

LOL


And here is my picture 36 weeks and 5 days. I feel like my belly grows every day!






And I Want to say a big Congrats to Billy and Chrissy Walsh! They had their son this morning and he is perfect!

Probably TMI, you have been warned.

Ugh. I am just grumpy today. I do have a doctors appt at 2:30. I beleive I will be going every week from now on. But in reality that is only for 2 more weeks because as far as I know I am still having a c-section. We will see what she says.

I really wanted to enjoy this pregnancy. But I am so sick of the sore nipples, leaking nipples, digestive issues, constipation, and now diarrhea. Which is now turned into hemorrhoids. I did not have any hemorrhoid issues with Brax, and I felt very lucky. But I feel a lot of pressure this time in my lower areas. Both of them. She feels so heavy. Sometimes I feel a sharp pain which makes me believe I am dilating. Who knows. Should I even embarrass myself and ask my doctor about it. I wonder if she is even going to check me. She never did with Braxton. The only time I got checked was when I saw a different doctor and she thought I was in early labor because of my symptoms that day. Is that something you ask for. "um doc can you check my cervix today" Too bad there is not an at home cervix checking kit. LOL

So I am 3 weeks away from my c-section date and I am so ready to be done with this huge belly of mine. And I mean huge! I will have to take some pics today. I look like I am smuggling a 10 lbs pumpkin.

Due Date Countdown Widget

ugh...the cold virus

I have been fighting this cold for what feels like forever now. Yesterday was the first day I felt better than usual. So I went to the grocery store with my Mother. I had to pick up my prescription and pick up some birthday cards. My Mom takes FOREVER in the store. I don;t know why, but what would take Rick and I 45 mins takes her 2 hours. I was getting very tired and uncomfortable towards the end. SO when I got home I tried to relax. I was laying down and started having contractions. They were irregular but frequent. They stopped after 2 hours. I thought that I really walked this baby into labor. LOL Not so lucky.

SO today I am feeling so so. My body hurts and this cough is exhausting. Only 3 weeks left until the c-section. Unless my Doctor feels like I can have a VBAC. I am looking forward to my appointment on Wednesday. WE will see what she says about my scan :o)


Oh and does anyone know if they still do trick or treating at the Christiana Mall for kids? I am not sure how I will be feeling on Halloween and I don't want Brax to miss out on the fun. The mall would just be so much easier than walking the hood. LOL

4D!!!

Okay so I got my ultrasound yesterday. My Doctor sent me to Maternal and Fetal medicine to get a more accurate weight estimate. They are a high risk facility and monitor pregnancy that is high risk. SO their equipment is top notch. They are super nice. She talked to me and explained everything that was on the screen. My baby has a lot of hair. She estimated her weight to be 6lbs 4oz. Which is a little big but not huge. So when I go to my doctor next week we will discuss my options once again.

But the coolest part of the whole appointment was when she converted it to 4D! I have always wanted to do a 4D ultrasound, but could never afford it. But this place does it for many reasons so she just did it for me and printed me some pictures. I was so excited! Gosh I would have loved Rick to see it, because the pictures do not do it justice.

Here she is!

UGH

Well I am officially sick. I caught what the guys have/had. Yuck! SO I am trying to talk myself into feeling better for my ultrasound today. And it looks like I can't get my flu shot tomorrow because they do not give them when your already sick. Rick could not get his yesterday at school. SO I will just make an appointment when I feel better.


And the dreams about random people have not stopped. Last night it was Jason Hawes from Ghost Hunters. Wow!

35 weeks

OK well I thought I was getting an ultrasound next week, but I got a phone call on Friday to schedule right away. Hmmm, not sure why. But my appointment is tomorrow afternoon. I am excited to see her again. Last time I saw her was 19 weeks! They will give me an estimated weight. And make sure she is still.... well a she :o) She feels really big and heavy. It would be nice if they could take her out at 38 weeks :o) The sooner the better. She is kicking my butt. Not to mention wreaking havoc on my hair and complexion.

Rick has been sick for a week and hyper extended his ligament in his knee for 2 weeks now. Needless to say, he has not been much help. But I understand. Well keeping him away from Braxton did not work. Braxton has been sick for 2 days, but seems to be feeling better today. Just still stuffy and runny nose. Sounds to me like Daddy is milking it. ;o) But fingers crossed, I am not sick and plan on staying that way.

There is a flu shot clinic at my doctors office on Wednesday. I plan on going. I am not so sure about the H1N1 vaccine coming out. My Dr wants me to get the shot, but I don't know. Still up in the air about it.

Been awhile....

Well Brooklyn will be here in 5 weeks. So much has happened in the last few months!

She is doing well, and so am I. She is big, like her brother. I am 34 weeks and measuring 37! My doctor suggests another c-section. Of course I wanted to have a VBAC, but I am not going to try if the baby is large. I get a scan in 2 weeks to get an estimated weight. My weight has fluctuated during this pregnancy I would lose some, gain a few, lose again. Unlike with Brax I lost the whole time. So hopefully after birth I will at least be at my starting weight, and with the help of breastfeeding and walking I can lose some more.

I will be getting a tubal ligation. Rick and I talked about it and we decided we are happy with 2 kids and we are lucky enough to have 1 of each :o)

Dr. says that if I am up and moving around ok after my c-section she will send me home in 48 hours instead of 72. I was so glad to hear that. I just want to get home to Braxton and start our new life as a family of 4 :o)I don't want to be laying in a hospital bed when I can be at home laying in my bed! Rick has 2 weeks off, so he will be helping me while I heal.

I have experienced some contractions this time. I never felt them with Brax, but this time I feel them. If she wants to come early I am all for it :o)

SO I will keep this updated for the next few weeks since I have readers :o) Thanks Barbie and Krissy.

Half way there

I am halfway through this pregnancy. I can not wait for the next half to be over. I want to meet our little princess.

I also realized that I don't think anyone reads this blog.So it is just me, putting down my thoughts for me. I can do that in a journal!

It's a Girl!!

Well we went for our big ultrasound yesterday. It was awesome. I was so happy Rick got to go with me. The baby looks good and is right on target for growth. The tech had a hard time finding the sex. She had me turn to my right and then she could get a better look. She said she thinks it's a girl. Then took another look and said she says girl. They always say "I am not 100% but it looks like..." So I am still kind of shocked and I probably won't believe it until I see her. And if it is wrong we still have some of Braxton's baby clothes.

When I sat up from the bed I saw Rick's face. He was smiling ear to ear! It was so awesome! I am so glad he was there. He said I knew it was going to be a girl, I wanted it to be a girl. It was so cute! Then we got in the car and he was like, I am worried how it is going to be with a girl. She is going to get whatever she wants from me. LOL I told him it can't be that way. We just laughed. She is going to be a Daddy's Girl. So cute! We can't wait to meet her.

And of course we went right to Babies R Us to buy her coming home outfit. I told my Mom after my appointment that they could not tell us the sex. So when we got home I showed up with the little outfit and said "JUST KIDDING" she was so excited. Everyone wanted a girl!

Back pain

I am having a weird back spasm in my lower back. I didn't have this with Braxton. I am wondering if it is the sciatic nerve. I know it is common for the baby to put pressure on it. This baby is sitting really different from Braxton, so maybe that is it. I just hope my back doesn't give out. How the heck am I going to take care of Braxton if I am bed ridden. Not to mention feed myself and take myself to the bathroom. UGH. I better do some research....

One more day until we know the sex of our little baby!


Is it okay for toddlers to have green tea? I better look that up too...

2 more days

I am so excited! In 2 more days we find out if we are having a boy or a girl. Rick gets to attend this sonogram :o) It is weird. Last pregnancy Rick got to go to every appointment with me, but he was working during my 20 week sonogram and I found out the sex of the baby by myself. This time, he has been staying home with Braxton during each appointment. But this sonogram he gets to be there since I made a late appointment. My Dad is going to watch Braxton so Rick can go :o) I am really excited. Ideally I would love for Rick to get to go with me to my appointments, but it is just easier to have the boys stay home and I do my thing with the Dr.
So yay! We can't wait.

where is my brain?

I have had the worst case of pregnancy brain. I can't remember anything short term. For example when I go into another room with intentions of doing something and I can't remember. Or I get on the computer to look something up and I can't remember what it was. This better be one smart baby :o) Sucking all my brain power.


Another funny thing.....Rick and I were discussing old wives tales one morning and how silly they were. A little while later I remembered the one about how if a woman is having a girl, the baby sucks all the Mom's beauty away. So I was in the bathroom in our room brushing my hair and I said " I must be having a girl, I look terrible" He said what do you mean. So I explained it to him, and he said "Yeah, she sure is sucking away all yours" It was so funny. I stared cracking up. Normally I would have probably been really offended and cried. But for some reason this humored me. I think it is because I knew he did not mean it the way it came out. So I gave him a hard time and he said he knows he is never going to hear the end of this one. :o)


And OMG! Anyone else have issues with bras during pregnancy? I don't know if this is because this is my 2nd or what. But my boobs are getting enormous!! I actually have not been able to wear any of my old bras because they cut of my circulation and I feel like I can't breathe. I bought a sports bra to see if I could hack that, no go. So I measured last night to see what my new bra size is. I can not believe it! It is so ridiculous that I am not going to buy a maternity bra online as I originally planned. There is no way I went from a DDD to an I. Yes that says I! My size itself went up 2 inches, but seriously an I!!! And since I was mortified I tried multiple sites and put in my measurements and some said H, one said DDDDDD, yes that is 6 D's. So when I finally get out to a store that has decent maternity bras I will be getting sized right there in the store. These things have taken over my body. Now I know where the shoulder and neck pain is really coming from!

Dreams.....

Okay so since being pregnant my dreams have been even more vivid and memorable than usual. Lately I have been having dreams about "hooking up" with my celebrity crushes, and crushes from high school. LOL What the heck! And also some not so hot dreams also. My sister told me when she was pregnant she had recurring dreams about Pauly Shore! It was so funny the was she described it! So since then she must have planted a seed because I am always dreaming about men. I don't think Rick would be very happy about that. So here are a few of the people that have been in my dreams lately. This does not include the real people in my life like friends, old crushes, old co workers, and of course Rick :o)

a little scary

So I went for my 16 week check up yesterday. I was not feeling well at all. I had a sore throat and a cold. I just wanted to stay at home in bed. But I went. No weight gain or loss. My blood pressure is still slightly elevated. But the scary part....she could not find the baby's heart beat! Talk about scared. She very calmly said " Let's go next door to the room with the ultrasound machine". I didn;t even know that thing worked anymore. I have never had one in the office. SO I tried to stay calm and she found the baby right away. Talk about relief. She was very kind to show me right where the heart was and to let me see it beating for about 30 seconds. The baby is a mover, like Braxton was. So she said she was not even going to attempt finding the sex. But I am set up for that June 4th. So baby seems to be okay, and doing well.

16 weeks

So today I am 16 weeks. I am slowly getting to the halfway point. I still struggle daily with many many things. I am sleeping better. The pillow must be helping some. But I have headaches still and this weekend had a migraine. It lasted from about 1pm Saturday until 5 am Sunday morning. I was really hoping I would get some relief in the 2nd trimester. I really love being pregnant, but I don't understand why I have to be so miserable. Make any sense? Probably not.

So I am kinda in a rut emotionally. I think once I find out what I am having and More starts happening, maybe I will be happier and healthier. I have been feeling really alone lately and writing a lot. I will talk to my Doctor this week and let her know all my concerns. Hopefully I can get some answers.

So don't mind me today. I am just feeling a little blue.

Oh yeah. My grandparents brought over some clothes today from my Aunt. There are some really cute things in there. Lots of cute pink girly stuff. We will see.......

Rick James to the rescue!

So Rick being the amazing guy that I know he is (but he forgets to show me sometimes) came to my rescue yesterday. First he called from work to check on me and asked if I wanted to go out to dinner last night. I said no because I didn't want to deal with "getting ready" because I felt so sick. Plus I have no clothes. So he got me cheese sticks from Papa John's that I have been wanting. THEN...Wait I am not done yet :o)......he went to Babies R Us and bought me a pregnancy pillow (which costs too much money) to see if it would help me sleep! How sweet is that! I didn't even ask for it! SO last night I did get a better sleep than I have in a few days. Not sure if it was the pillow, or just exhaustion, but something helped. So yeah, I am a lucky girl! So today I feel pretty good so far. I hope it keeps up throughout the day.

Sleepless nights

I don't know if it is my anxiety, I don't know if I am depressed again. Whatever it is I am not sleeping through the night. It is too early for the pregnancy to be causing this already. My belly is sticking out but not uncomfortable. I woke up this morning at 2:00 and could not go back to sleep. I still am not feeling well. I went out to the kitchen to get some milk and just started crying. I could not stop. This was at about 3:40 now. I came in my room and just was sobbing. Rick woke up and was shocked. I was really down yesterday and just wanted to be left alone. I think he is kinda scared because he has no idea what is wrong. All I can think of is that I am stuck in this house 24/7 and it is eating away at me. The weather is really making it worse because I can;t escape and go take a walk or anything! I just can;t take to much more, I am going to completely lose myself.

I am freakin miserable!!!

Okay so I have been cramped up in this house for what feels like forever because the weather has been so rainy, and cold and dreary! Brax is miserable because he wants to go "westside" which is supposed to be outside but he says westside. LOL To top it all off the weather is causing me to have horrible headaches, earaches and neck aches. I FINALLY stop puking everyday and now I am dealing with this crap! Tylenol cold and sinus, and regular tylenol and Benadryl are not helping! Now I have this weird pain in my right jaw, I am sure cause by my ear ache. Rick keeps telling me to call the Dr, but I don;t feel like hearing "it's all part of pregnancy". I will mention it when I go next week though. I am sure I have allergies, but I have never been tested. I am not sure if getting tested during pregnancy is a good idea.

I am also feeling the pregnancy blues. Feeling like no cares. No one is interseted in me or the baby. Feeling really alone. I wish I had more adult interaction out side of the house. I wish I had a car so Brax and I could do things during the day. It would be so awesome if Brax and I could have more play dates with Dyana and Juliana. But we are both stuck at home all day long with no car. It is SO frustrating!! SO yeah. I have been quite miserable.

update 4/28/09

Okay so along with all the excitement of yesterday, I got a call from my Dr and she has scheduled my c-section for October 21 2009. I have mixed feelings about it. It would be nice to know exactly when the baby will be here and all, but I really do not want to deal with the recovery. It sucks! The recovery includes: a huge incision in your lower abdomen. It hurts, it's sore. You can't cough without feeling like your guts are going to fall out. And one of the side effects of the anesthesia is the need to cough! You can hardly walk to the bathroom, 20 steps away. You can't stand up straight for at least 2 weeks. That means taking care of a newborn is impossible to do alone, let alone chasing a 2 year old (who will be almost 3). You have horrible gas pains due to your intestines being pulled out of your stomach and set aside, while they find and cut open your uterus. Then they put them back where they "think" they go. While you body finds it's way back to normal you can't even breathe because the pain is so bad. Not to mention the 3 days you have to stay in the hospital, compared to the 1 after a vaginal birth. It ends up being like 4 days because you have to wait to get discharged the last day. (we left at almost 3pm that day)
So, I am hoping to get my way, and give a vaginal birth a go. I will not know until a lot later in my pregnancy. But I am hoping and praying this works out. Ugh!
If any of you that have given vaginal birth have any advice or gruesome details to share with me. Please do. I would like to know the worst of both experiances so I can feel better one way or another :o) Even if you have a story about a friend :o)

We have movement people!!

Okay so yesterday was my 4th month mark, also the start of my 2nd trimester. How exciting! The 2nd trimester is usually the most relaxing of the 3. Well I was laying in bed relaxing for a minute watching Baby Mama. LOL I started to feel a little movement, but I assumed it was way to early to feel anything...right? So I put my hand on my belly, I was looking a little like Al Bundy from Married with Children. I felt it again! I thought I could only feel it internally. SO I asked Rick to stick his hand down my pants (LOL, he was like "sure") on the spot I was feeling movement. I didn't say anything when I felt it move so he wouldn;t tell me he felt it just to make me feel better. But as soon as I felt it he said "just now" and I smiled really big! It was awesome! I could not beleive we could feel it already! He felt it one more time and then baby went to sleep. How awesome was that!!! We are so excited!

update

Okay so it has been awhile since I updated. I have been feeling really sick lately and just don't ever feel like getting on the computer.
But anyway....last week I had my genetic screening test/ultrasound. Everything was great. The baby was being stubborn and would not turn over so she could get a good pic. I have a pic of the back of the baby's head. LOL I may upload it eventually. But all my tests were normal and the baby's heart rate was 166! Old wives tales state that means its a girl. We will see.

So today I went for my 12 week checkup, even though I am 13 weeks :o) Everything looked good. She went over all my blood work and stuff. Then we got on the VBAC subject. If you don;t know that is a vaginal birth after c-section. I already knew she was more nay than yay on this. After we talked for a little while we decided to play it by ear and see how this baby grows. She is going to sceduale the c-section but if the baby ends up smaller than 9 lbs we will go ahead and try a vaginal birth. But if I have another 9+ pound baby, I agreeed to have a c-section.

So that's where I am. I will try yo keep updated better now. I switched my prenatal viatamins and feel a little better. :o)

It is not Twins!!

I had my first ultrasound today and it was only one baby! What a relief! Twins would have been a true blessing, but financially and emotionally I don't think I was ready at all. But the baby looks awesome! So cute. I got to see the heartbeat and it was moving a little. I get another one in a few weeks. The baby was actually measuring a few days smaller than I am, so I guess I am just expanding quicker this time around. But my due date is still 10/26/2009.

Twins???!!!

Well I went to my first appointment today and I didn't tell her that I was thinking I was having twins. I didn't want her to think I was paranoid. She did most of the talking.
Well these are the things she said to me "How sure of you of your dates" Did you measure big right away with your first baby", "are you sure you gained 12 lbs already", "I have to give you an ultrasound because it might be twins" OMG!!!!! So yeah, ultrasound on Wednesday. She couldn't get a heartbeat yet with the doppler so I have to wait for Wednesday. But she said everything looked good. We will see. I guess I have to mentally prepare myself that this may be twins for real!

OMG

OKay, so I am getting really scared. I am afraid that it is possible I could be having twins! My belly is huge already! My symptoms are horrible. I always feel sick. I am ALWAYS hungry. I eat almost every 1 1/2 hours. Which is SO weird because I feel so sick, but I know if I don't eat when my belly is empty I will feel even worse. I was NEVER this hungry with Braxton. I am eating good stuff, so I know my belly is not getting big because I am eating too much. Believe me I would not be eating if I was not empty. It is just crazy! I don't think I would be able to handle twins. Especially not in this house! OMG. I am freaking out! My appt is not until Monday and I am so nervous! What am I going to do?

Time to get away

Well I was talking to my sister today. We both have a lot going on in our lives at this time. We had a really good conversation. She offered to fly Braxton and I down to visit her. She has never met Braxton, she has lived in 5 diffrent states in the past 10+ years. I have not seen her since her wedding. So it will be really nice to see her and my nephews. We both agree that I need a change of scenery, and to catch up of course. SO it looks like April I will be flying down with Braxton. I am so scared! I have only been on a plane 1 time beore, and I have to do it with a toddler! Any tips or tricks in doing this will be greatly appreciated!

Overwhelming

OK so, a lot has been going on. I am a little bit of a stressed out emotional wreck! Braxton has hit his terrible 2's. He screams at everything! Instead of communication he just screams! It is so frustrating. At times I just don't know what to do. I hope this is something he will grow out of.
I have tried ignoring it, yelling back, talking calmly, spanking his butt and putting him in his room. It still continues! UGH! Talk about feeling like a bad parent! We were in the store yesterday and he kept screaming and hitting me. I tried quietly to tell him no and to stop hitting me. He just kept going. It got to the point where I had to just walk away and let Rick deal with him. And of course he stopped. Some times I just think he hates me!
ON top of having to deal with that I feel like we are being pushed out of our house. I know my parents don't want us here anymore. Now that I am having another baby it seems like they really don't want us here. So I am on a hunt for a place to live. Delaware is so expensive and it is hard to find a decent place that we can afford that is not in the ghetto. I don't know what we are going to do. It sucks to have worn out your welcome........
Not to mention how much it hurts to not have your Mom be excited about a new baby coming when she was the one that said she wanted another one less than one year ago! Otherwise we would not have been trying while we were living here!!!!

morning sickness

With Braxton I was sick almost my whole pregnancy. I was completly surprised with him so I didn't find out until I was almost 8 weeks along. This time since I was waiting and tracking everything I knew right away. I already have that knot in the stomach feeling. Yesterday was a good day. I felt good, I did a lot, including cleaning out Braxton's closet to see what stuff we still have for the new baby. It is too early for nesting isn't it? But anyway back to business, doing dishes makes me vomit. I am cleaning up after 4 adults and one toddler and the question of what exactly is on the plate is making it even worse. I try to hold my breath and then I get dizzy. LOL It would just be esier if everyone cleaned up after themselves. Wow I got really off track. I hope I don't have morning sickness as bad as last time, but hey. I ended up losing 40 lbs after it was all said and done. You can't beat that, a healthy baby and a smaller body. But it all came back, and then some :o( I don;t really have an appetite. I am hungry but don;t want to eat anything. So I just force down some fruit and then 15 mins later my stomach is growling again. We will see as things progress.

Braxton is going to be a big brother!

So we are expecting our second baby! How exciting! It looks like I should be due in October. My first prenatal appointment is March 16th. I am so happy and nervous at the same time! Am I going to be able to handle 2? 

Rick is really happy! He could not stop smiling and saying he was going to be a Daddy again! I am so lucky! 

So this blog will be a pregnancy blog to follow me throughout my pregnancy and birth of the expecting baby. I got this idea from Barbie. She is such a smart girl! LOL 

So if your following this, thank you! That means a lot. I just figured I would use this outlet to express myself during this exciting and emotional time :o)